Getting Moving

Dear Universe,

It's hump day, yay. I'm feeling really good today, if a little bit sore. I needed to get my big butt moving and get some of the winter weight off. I'm not a big eater to begin with so restricting calorie intake doesn't help me much. The only thing that really helps is getting moving, another lovely side effect of menopause.

I started on the treadmill again this week. I've been up and on it by 7:30 every morning. It is definitely helping my back loosen up, which is wonderful. My hips and legs are screaming at me, but if it helps me slim back down I'll live with it.

I have started keeping a weigh in log too. That helps keep me on track. I have a goal in mind and seeing the progress in black and white is very helpful to me. If I can lose 20 pounds I will be back where I was last summer. I was happy at that weight, but am hoping to lose 40 pounds this time.

I know it is time to stop when Musicman starts telling me not to lose any more weight. Isn't that truly music to any woman's ears? A man saying you are the perfect size and he doesn't want you getting any skinnier? He makes me laugh, cause he always says he doesn't want me to lose my butt. I have a bubble butt. I have been heard to say my butt exits a room ten minutes after I do. The fact that he likes it so much has gone a long way in changing how I feel about it.

We thought for a second we were going to get some private time last night. Our daughter left just as we were getting home so Musicman offered to give our son a ride to his girlfriend's house. No go though, he wasn't feeling well and didn't want to go out. What does it take to catch a break with these two?

Of course, I had to be a tease anyway. I usually change clothes as soon as I come home from work. Last night I waited until he was ready to go up and change and went with him. I removed my skirt first and then my sweater. I guess the fact that I was walking around in OTK socks and lace panties insired him. A fly by spanking did occur. Hey, a girls' gotta do what a girl's gotta do. The socks get him every time, they are magical.

I thought I had decided what I was gonna do about my other blog, about being faerie. As you know, I still want to give her a voice, but it seems things are changing. I thought when I was ready to give her her voice back I would just go back and post occasionally. Now, people are starting to find me here and since I had to have my faerie pics it is pretty easy to figure out that I am faerie. Maybe there is a way to link the two blogs.

I have to give this more thought. I can't imagine too many people are interested in the day to day goings on I write about here, but do I want to keep two seperate blogs or do I want to write about everything here. I so love my faerie persona I can't give her up. Definitely needs more thought.

Love,
Lolita Lilyflower

Six Hours

Dear Universe,

It's Friday, yay!!!

Just six hours of work and then freedom for two whole days. Of course there will be errands and chores to do, but I don't mind that at all. I enjoy getting up and out on Saturdays and getting the errands done. There's just something so satisfying about taking care of my family and it gives me time with Musicman. I always look forward to that, I'm a tad bit addicted to the man.

I'm definitely hoping for some privacy tonight, playtime would be nice. We have had several encounters this week, but I'm not exactly the quiet type. Having the chance to play without having to be quiet is always the best way to play. We almost had the chance last night, our son called to say he was staying at his girlfriend's house. Unfortunately 5 minutes later, our daughter came home.

I really need to talk to those two and encourage them to get their schedules in sync a bit better. They would probably be mortified to hear their father and I would like some time alone, but they are adults, I think they can handle hearing it. Of course I won't be providing specifics, that they don't need to hear.

Maybe, just maybe, I will be inspired to write a post for faerie. Just maybe though, I'm still not sure I'm ready to return to it, even though I admit to missing it so much. I find it inspiring and fulfilling to write in such a positive manner, a celebration almost, of a truly beautiful connection.

It's still snowing here, so snuggling up together, watching movies and playtime are the perfect weekend agenda. It's starting to feel like Spring is never gonna get here. Maybe it will be one of those years that goes straight from Winter to Summer. That's not too unusual for life here on the lake shore.

My mood continues to stay stable, most likely because things haven't been too stressful this week. The kids are not causing issues other than the lack of privacy. I'm starting to feel more comfortable at work. Most importantly, Musicman is having a great week health wise. He's had a lot of energy, which he's been sadly lacking of late. Understandable considering his health issues, he so strong, but he's not indestructible. It's just been so nice for him to have enough energy for work commitments and still have some energy at the end of the day for me.

He has been giving me massages almost every night and the pain in my shoulder that has been plaguing me is finally starting to feel better. Getting older is not for the weak or faint of heart.

Love,
Lolita Lilyflower

A Snapshot In Time

Dear Universe,

It's days like this I wish I was still writing my sex blog. Then I could tell you how nice last night was. Finally some privacy and some stress relief for me. Of course it's not just vanilla sex, though that's fun too.

I've considered telling my friends in the TTWD community about this blog and trying to combine the two. I miss being faerie and Mr. being Musicman. I just haven't decided yet what I want to do. It's nice to have a place to write about the everyday stuff and not just all the D/s stuff.

Of course the other bloggers in the community always read what I wrote no matter what the subject. It just feels like a different voice writing here. And, Since no one really reads here, I think I feel a little freer to write.

I got to know many of the people in the community very well, I know their real names, where they live and all about their families. It is nice to make friends, but I think once I started doing that it became harder to write the difficult stuff.

Of course I've also realized that thanks to menopause I don't handle the stress of life nearly as well as I used to. The things we have going on now are difficult, but they are in no way as difficult as some of things we have faced in the past. I made the mistake of thinking for a bit that it was being a sub that was making me feel weak. I now know that is not true.

If anything being a sub made me stronger, cause I believed in him as my Dom to be there to support me and reel me back in when I needed it. It is those stupid hormones flying around uncontrolled that make me feel weak. That was a huge problem when we first embarked on a D/s lifestyle, my emotions and how out of hand they were.

Then when we had an empty nest, we had all the time in the world to play and play we did, often. I was able to stay on an even keel then. I didn't experience so many highs and lows. I'm just not sure what I really want I guess, oh those lovely hormones.

Love,
Lolita Lilyflower